Terbawa-bawa sampai ke mimpi~

says :
 dear haszrin, masuk nie i mimpi u dah 3 kali .
 1st i mimpi u.. 2 days before my birthday...that time i mimpi u...u dtg rmh kt papar . n pkai keta putih n that time it was raining.. n on 27 oct ....its raining that time n u came with ur satria white car . i terkejut mimpi tu btul2 terjadi .
2nd time mimpi u after 2 days my birthday..i mimpi u duduk kat singgah sana with other women n ada c ayu juga time tu . n that time when u saw me . u minta maaf ngan i coz x bagitaw i..u dgn pmpuan n u said u mmg syg i .
 3rd mimpi....i mimp...u..sis yeen...chailorh n kwn2 lain yg i x knal...that time kita tgh mkn2kt sebuah kdai...then after mkn sis yeen has to meet someone that time n kita pula jln kaki with chailorh . i dunno whre is that place....but i was so happy that time... ntah knpa...then tiba2 i terbangun.....gantunggg tul tu mimpi smpai rindu u. lemahhh i rindu u sayang :/

For u Haszrin

says : dear haszrin, makin lama i tahan rindu nie makin sakit . sedih lhar mcm nie...lemahhh i ...nk cry tapi x dpt... am i too strong enough to handle this feeling??? i try to forget u..but its hard for me...mngambil masa yg lama tuk lupakn u. hei. u kata ngan i u bz keja.... n yeah i tunggu u .coz u said u BUSY kerja but now when i see u after 1 month kita x jmpa n u didnt rply my text, u look so diff nie . ur change bha . awkward gilaaa jmpa u time d habour...fook yuen .... n even dlm keta just the 2 of us when u send me home  . seriously im fucking awkward...i dont no what to say to u . coz i terlalu rindu sgt2 . kalau boleh i nak sgt hug u n say I MISS U SAYANGGG . tapi semua tu i x dpt nk ungkapkn coz i can see on ur face that u really like her more than friend . u kata u syg i...n makin lama makin berkurang syg tu . n u kata i nie kuat jln... knpa x larang i??? i jln pergi mana2 i tell u kn . bila u kata u bz kerja... i bgi u space so u x stresss . once a week i text u . kalau dulu 1st met bkn main lagi smpai kalau i x rply text u..u kol . skrg xde... coz u dah jmpa org baru . well its owke n im owke if u found someone else or u fall to someone else... janji u gitau i . n im owke . hei i hate being lonely . coz when im alone...i suddenly rindu u n engat u.. u x pernah ckp pun hubungan kita actually dah jauh... i serius gila ngan u ...i terkejut juga nmpk u kt bed when u text me u bz kerja . i nmpk u d bed n with other women . i cry time tu taw . masuk nie u org kedua buat i mcm nie . untill u kata i ada text u and u pun terkejut knpa i text mcm tu . n u engat i mabuk . heii i xmabuk lhar... i terkejut nmpk u . i rasa diri i d perbodohkan... but bila i dgr dri dia yg hubungan kita dah jauh actually . u x pernah ckp . i dgr ckp u...bila u advise i dgr...erghhhhh agak sakit juga bila u called her syg . but yeah like i said im always owke... u buat i jealous mcm mna pun i ok...thankx haszrin buat i happy dgn u . u ajar i erti kehidupan . just tu lhar i just rindu gilaaaa dgn u . ily sayang :')

my spiderman . hahaha

-sorry kalau i merepek.. but if u read this haszrin. i minta maaf k . xde tmpt nak meluah . just here .

Hard to cry

dlm kpala otak nie blankkkk ooo . ntah apa maw tulis.... terlalu frustttt? ntah lhar . mcm kosong gila lhar bha dlm otak nie . x lama ak jadi org yg xda perasaan lhar nie . maw nangis pun susah . apalagi air mata jatuh setitis pun susah . aduiii sedih jak lhar bha hati nie . mmg ckup kuat kha ak nie? sdangkn dorg bermesra dpn ak . ak just buat bodoh . ak just anggap ak x pernah kpel dgn dia . x puas lagi kha maw buat ak jealous?? kw buat mcm mna pun . ak tetap x kisahhh coz ak sudah biasa d sakiti . jujur ak kata . ak syg kw haszrin...syg sgt ...mcm org bodoh jak ak tgu kw ...bila kw kata kw bz kerja....thankx lhar k .