SUSAH SGT KAH NAK HARGAI???

says : 

disappointed gila ! eeeeeeeeeeeeee ! guess what apa yg i nmPk on insta..... erghhh agak mnyesal i buka insta c fara (fayaa29). well at least i taw kn. .ignore him but focus d tshirt tu ! eeeeeee tshirt tu i beli tuk dia pkai when dia dgn i but apa nieee? i nmpk d insta bju tu n bju fara d katil n she said on insta "OUR 1ST DATE" ???!! what the hell???!. euwwww . i hate it ! apa nie? semua brg yg u bg dgn i x pernah org sentuh . org peluk bawa tdur pun x pernah . BUT YOU ALIF ! apa nie????? i beli tu time kita still together . i know kita xda apa2 but at least appreciate bha . i kecewa sgt dgn u . i beli tu tuk u . seumur hidup i .... i x pernah belikan baju or apa2 brg for someone special to me . i kecewa sgt . i nak text u tapi susah . i malas gaduh . i nak u sendiri fikir bah. hargai bha hargai ...

SUSAH SANGAT KAH NAK HARGAI ORANG SEPERTI I???. 

i know i salah tu hari coz mrh fara  n i minta maaf. u buruk kan i ada u minta maaf? xda kan . i x peduli semua tu . i just buat bodoh . i know who am i to u. hanya satu jak i minta i nak u hargai pmberian yg i bagi kat u . jaga my feeling. apa u rasa bila u d tempat i??? sakit?? x sakit kan but DISAPPOINTED SANGAT-SANGAT KAN? mcm tu lah i rasa. pleaseeee. masuk nie dua kali sudah u buat i kecewa. tolong lah....kalau eyaaa pun u maw pkai ...u pakai lah but please bkn time dgn GIRLFRIEND BARU u tu...

Dream and Him

says :
sejak 2 hari nie asyik maw nak nangis jak . duuno y . and kebelakangan nie i balik2 mimpi haszrin. apa semua nie? bkn semua tu just mainan tdur kah? i rindu arif tapi i mimpi hazsrin knpa? hurmmm. sometimes i just wish i've never met u before . yaaa i admid it i sayang u TAPI itu dulu . like u said PAST IS PAST kn . so i just sometimes rindu . normal lah kn . huhu .
tadi ada org bawa p mix tapi i x maw . coz i promise with arif yg i akan pergi dengan dia . tahun baru nie alhamdulillah perlahan-lahan i akan stop dgn semua tu. insyallah. even sometimes hati tu nak pergi but dunno bila NIAT tu dah pasang mmg x nak kluar n xnk pergi . heeeeeeee . kalau arif  blk dari pulau confirm dia happy kn . hopefully lah . coz i know he want me to stay at home . oh i forgot to introduce to u all .
ZAHIR ARIFF berumur 25 tahun this year . bekerja d navy now dia d pulau yg xda line huhk ! dia tggu lanun serang . oh no ! im worried kalau ada war nie . eeeeee . but semua tu xkn berlaku pun . definitely not gonna happen! arif ada pernah tnya i .
ARIFF: kw sanggup tunggu ak kerr dengan takde line kat pulau tu ?
and i said yes to arif yg i akan tggu dia . suddenly i teringat i pernah kata dengan arif yg i bencikan dia . i benci bila i sayang orang coz bila i sayang i akan rindu . tengok lah sekarang nie, baru 2 minggu dia d pulau i sudah nak cry menahan rindu . yaaaa i admit it i x kuat bila i tahan rindu, terlalu sakit sgt. nasib baik lah bln 2 nie arif balik kk sudah . jyeaaaahhh ! 

MEMORIES

says :

assalamualaikum . heeeeeeeeeee. siapa d gmbr tu? thats my ex my beloved ex boyfie . his name is MUHAMMAD ALIF BIN AZHAR.

i dunno y i suddenly wrote bout him. hurmmmm .yeah i miss him sometimes

i suka tgk gmbr2 kenangan bout us . huhu. known him since 2008 till NOW . kami couple almost 3 years i think . masuk tahun nie kami knal 5 years dah . huhu . 1st time knal dia d centre point  time 2008 . that time i dgn dia PLAYER taw . but time i playgirl i d kenali as "KACA YANG SUKAR DI SENTUH" u guys wanna know y? bcoz no one yg berani sentuh i even pgg tgn i or wat mmg langsung tiada org x berani sentuh .HAHA. and bila i jumpa alif . alif lah yg pecahkan kaca. dia berani sentuh i . berani pgg tgn i . dia lah PERTAMA . yeah i admit it . i love him . but sekarang tinggal kenangan only.

i still ingat time before i nk gi australia ...kt KLIA i call alif...omg ! dsna i btul2 terkejut . alif x pernah nangis teruk mcm tu dlm call . seolah2 alif xnk jauh dri i . well australia n KL ?? jauh kn then i stay sna 3 months. so i went to aussie . kt sna mmg bnyk gila lelaki hensem serius...! but dlm hati just alif that time . every nite i call alif . smpai lah i kt malaysia . d KL i kac jmpa alif with my mom . weeeeeee . hihi mom ok jk tgk alif . heeee . then mom bgi i date dgn alif :) thankx mom . hihi ..but semua tu just memory yg sgt sgt sgt terindah buat i :')

dis pic time awal bln 2012 if im not mistake. d anjung senja :)

 mcd with him at 1borneo

gila2 punya perangai klau dgn me. auwwww . he wearing the shirt that i bought him :)

pizza hut with him d 1borneo juga

haha. silly alif . 

and the last pic was taken since 2011  i think. bln 5 kalau x silap time bfday my bestie. auwwww . i misss this moment . alif buat surprise that time . di kata dia xdpt dtg . then tba2 dia muncul dpn i ...auwwww .smpai semua org jeles tgk kmi . coz bila kami together kami act like couple+best fren . heeee sweet kn . but skrg alif milik org lain dah . glad that he found someone that who can replace me . even thoe i hate that bitch . as long as he happy i pun ekut happy :)

p/s : alif ....nadia rindu alif. hurmmmm maw text pun susah . faham sndiri lah alif .

PhotoShoot

says :
yeah as u guy see thats me . taking a photoshoot at karambunai . yup i know sexy kn . well kena jadi model sekali skala bkn slalu . i know i know n bla bla bla . huhu .i x pndai gambar2 actually nak buat reaction face pun fail but i try my best n do the best . this time i tgh thingking of someone that i really miss . i think lah but yeah i mmg thingking about someone . my fren said my face yg reaction boring . haha
well how was the picture of mine? is it ok or what?

I FORGIVE U

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dear blogger, i ade seorg ex yg i actually betul2 syg dri dulu smpai skrg. even dia buat i sakit hati sgt but i forgive him . i know dia mmg buat slh but kalau boleh minta maaf lah dgn i . 1st time alyf buat nadia mcm nie. xpernah2 ok. alyf pun taw kan nadia bukn pndai benci org, paling pun mrh jak tu pun kejap. nadia kalau boleh nak sgt text alyf . butt ego nie xmaw lyan alyf d sebabkn kesalahan alif tu . bnyk2 ex alyf jak paling nadia syg n u know that . y u do dis to me ? why? why? why?
jujur, nadia rindu dgn alif. i miss the moment that we used to have . i know i cant have u anymore , i know ur not mine but can't we just be friend? like dulu . every night i peluk patung teddy (qalesya) so i can sleep tight.  nadia minta maaf coz biar kan alyf mcm tu jak . alif , kalau boleh nadia x maw hubungan kita mcm nie . x call x text nadia rasa lain sgt . i know u miss me but u takut nadia still mrh alif kn ? i know u alif . i already forgive u . please text me thats all i want it . said it that u miss me too . this pain hurts me much cant hold it anymore . YA ALLAH kuatkan lah semangat hamba mu ini .
nadia rindu kenangan kita . kenangan yg nadia x pernah lupa ialah nadia kejar alif dari cp smpai terminal  bas d padang merdeka . time tu alif marah ntah pasal apa . that time i dont wanna lose u and u ignore me that time . but for me setiap kenangan kita nadia x pernah lupa :'(
suddenly tears fall down . teringat saat tu .